i haven’t blogged for a while because i’ve been busy with school. lotsa homeworks, exams and projects. my finals will be a week from now. i’ve also been busy with making this new version. i still have an empty lovelife… hehehe… what’s new?! i’ve also been busy downloading polytones for my cellphone, i have 172 polytones, and i only have 1.1MB left on my phone memory ;)…anyway, it’s been a long while since i last talked to marvin…well, we talked a while ago for an hour and a half. we just talked about the places he’s been, and about his day, and my day, what’s been up with us. i called up jonathan to personally thank him for the free server & domain he gave me. we talked about his future. he’s going to australia on october to work. well, i hope he becomes successful. i am so glad that all the bitterness i felt for him is all gone. we’re in good terms now, and that’s all good. i hope that, that someone i know, will come to let go of all the bitterness that he has in his heart, so that he’ll find peace.
i bought mariah carey’s charmbracelet album, and i’m listenin’ to it right now. i like the song playing right now. kinda like what i’m feeling. anyway, i am so so stressed out! coz in between all the exams, homeworks and projects, i had to update my website and maintain gp and i’s forum. i haven’t had enough sleep in days, and i have been so preoccupied with all these…but it’s so ok coz at least it lets me forget about my problems for a while. i have no classes on friday..yey! i still have a class to attend tomorrow, though. my math class. i had to take a make up exam coz i was absent last monday.
my body is givin’ up on me. i wish i could have the option to turn off my heart or my brain, so that I won’t be so stressed out. i am so tied up. i don’t know where to get my energy from… oh… i wish i have someone… (note to self: stop watchin’ dawson’s creek!) anywayzzz….i better stop typing..my eyes and hands hurt…
I need to go on a diet to lose weight… anyone ever heard of generic Phentermine to shed off those pounds?
Listening to : All I’ve Ever Wanted – Mariah Carey
i’ve been listening to the same song forever! i don’t want it to stop at all… it kinda helps me get it all out. my emotions… why can’t i just be happy? it’s been a long long time since i have felt that natural high. i feel so alone. yes, i have my family and friends, but i am really crumbling down inside. i know that they have their set of problems too. i don’t wanna bother them with mine. i can handle it. i guess… i know i’ll get through this alone… yeah, it’s hard. but that’s how i deal. but it’s always better to have someone to make me feel that i am loved and cared for. someone who could put a smile on my face… permanently… i know love isn’t supposed to be wrong. but at the moment, that fact is null… whatever i am feeling for that guy, i know it’s right. maybe it’s just the timing, or most probably, it wasn’t meant to be. in my heart, i know that it’s right. (note to self: stop soundin’ so cheesy!) <– i can’t help it! geez, dre! pull yourself up! anyway, i didn’t go to school today coz my dad won’t let me. i’ve been having these migraines and my nose is bleedin’ for like 4 times already. i don’t know why. they won’t tell me what’s wrong. i seem healthy and i feel healthy, so i guess it’s nothing serious… i guess this is all for now… my eyes hurt…
things are getting kind of weird… first off, i went to hear mass today, which i haven’t done in so many months…i guess since early december last year. i lost faith in those stuff. i feel like whatever the priest is sayin’ are so far from what the real deal is. well, at the homily, I was like *roll eyes* … I dunno… I went to church coz it’s like nothin’s goin’ my way… I just felt that maybe I should start believin’ in somethin’ again… anywayzzz…someone’s
been reading what I’m writing in here…which I think is pretty good coz at least someone appreciates whatever it is that I put here… although, it’s kind of awkward that people would know what’s been goin’ on with my life… but I guess, it’s just people’s nature to like all the rumors, the controversies, and snoopin’ in somebody else’s life… so, this is MY life… and my life SUCKS… I heard this song “addicted” on the radio, and I can’t get it off my head… I’m singin’ it while I’m typing *LoL* “I’m adic- I’m addicted to u…heartbreaker…heartbreaker…” *LoL* then someone texted me today, saying “hey ‘zup dre? How’ve u been? I’ve been trying to call u, but u’re not pickin’ up…u mad at me? I’m sorry that I always bother u… =c bakit kase ‘di mo ko pinapansin? Kahit sa school…” geez! That guy won’t get it! I already told him I love someone else… I already told him who when he asked me…yeah, yeah…he’s cute, and funny, and rich, and smart… but I just can’t feel anything for him… I always end up thinkin’ about HIM… too bad, I’m the only one thinkin’ about him, and him? he’s probably NOT thinkin’ about me… but hey! at least it makes me smile when I do think of him… I hope he’s happy na… I hate it when he’s sad… but what’s a girl to do? Damn… wish, if these feelings are so wrong… wish it would just go away… I need a sign… if he wasn’t meant to be for me… then I’ll just accept it… but when will I know? How would I know? I’m so so so shy to ask… *geez, dre!* (note to self: stop bein’ negative…) my beshy told me that I’m a brave “silly” girl, for helpin’ him out w/ his problem, when I know that it will mean a tear for me… but I love him… and I care… I am not really like this… I’m selfish when it comes to love… but he’s different… it’s like for the first time I fell in love… and to whom? to the one whom I can never have… LIFE! As long as I know that he’ll be there, and that he’ll be happy, then I would be fine… (note to self: stop whackin’ ur head!) I’ve always believed in reasons… but until now I haven’t figured out the reasons why I fell for him… I mean, the purpose of it all. In short… I love him…and I don’t care about the why’s, the how’s and the but’s… I love him… that’s all…
If you only knew
What I feel for you
If you only lived for me
And I lived for you
I’d be in heaven
My dreams would come true
‘Cause all I’ve ever wanted
Is you
that explains it all… i don’t even have to go into details….
he’s back! he came home a while ago, so i’m happy! i’ll be able to talk to him again. well, we did talk on the phone for like 11 minutes. so it’ll be like P300 worth of airtime! hehehe… but it was worth it. at least i had the chance to talk to him. he enjoyed his stay there and well i’m glad he did. anyways, gp told me “I SUCK!” well, i agree with him… i really do! quoting gp: “it’s too bad stupidity isn’t too painful” well yeah, i totally agree, coz if it wasn’t, then i’d be too crazy right now! i’m just a little unwell…hehehehe! i’ll have a new sim card, maybe tomorrow with P4000 worth of calls or text! hehehehe! i have an oral exam tomorrow, actually it’s about facial expressions and i have to do it infront of the whole class. i’m the only girl in that class, and imagine what i’d look like doing the “satisfaction” expression on my face!!! it’ll be too embarrassing! i hope it won’t be my turn tomorrow!!
Who Am I?
I am Dré. I am in my 20s and I'm currently residing in the Philippines. I am a certified Filipina and is very proud to be. My legal status is single. I love going to the beach, hanging out with my friends over coffee, and I love my Butterfinger and Cinnamon bun. I don't like the hot weather, or unnecessary noises and crowded places. I love the smell of rain, an afternoon movie marathon and my dog, Booboo. more?