Unending Questions

What does it feel when a woman falls in love?
What is the sound of her voice when she calls out his name?
How does time stand still when both of them are in one place at the same time?
How do actions make up for the words left unsaid?
Why is a fault easily forgotten after a sweet gesture?
How can holding someone close make you feel safe and secure?

I do not know.

Have I forgotten the answers to these questions?

Or, have I forgotten how it feels to be in love?

Is it fair to say that somehow those mushy feelings are too shallow for me?

I guess, what I’m saying is, that I want to love again. I want to feel again. I want to be able to answer those questions. I want to know how it feels to hear my name from that person’s lips, the one I love and who loves me back.

Most of the time, I fear that I am always the one who loves more. But I don’t want that fear to be a hindrance to feel love again. I don’t want my questions to be “What if’s”. I hate “What if” questions. It brings me to unending thoughts that never really gets me anywhere.

I dreamed of someone last night. Someone I have no connection to. In short, unknown to me. He was supposed to be my boyfriend, then I woke up and realized it was just a bad dream…

P.S.
For those who’s asking who he is. Well, he’s this, this, this and THIS. Codename: Heinz

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